If you're a parent... you've been there. Those days when it seems nothing is going right.
The baby won't stop screaming, you're covered in pee or other bodily fluids, the toddler is throwing a hissy fit, and you can just feel the judgemental stares of that little old lady following you as you try to bounce one and get the other under control, and neither is working.
Yeah. We've all been there.
For me lately it's been hard. Miah's colicy, which means he screams for hours. With no real reason. Lately people have started calling this "Purple crying." I don't care what it is... it is horrible.
Add that to the fact that I am the only person in the world he won't take a soother from, and the only person who can't calm him down, no matter what I do... And Miah is a tough nut to crack.
Wiggles has just started her jealous phase. As soon as I nurse Miah, or Caleb holds him... she hits him. Hard. With no warning. The problem is sometimes she's gentle and loving and we want to encourage that, so we can't just keep him constantly out of reach. Her little personality has really developed over the last little bit. She's opinionated, stubborn, and is 1 going on 13 I swear.
My house is never clean anymore. I gave up on it. There are ground up soda crackers in the carpet, and baby clothes scattered everywhere cause Wiggles loves to play with them, and somehow it always seems that dishes are never fully done.
Combine all this with sleep deprivation, and you have one very overwhelmed Mama.
But here's somethings to remember for all of you in the same boat I am.
I know, I know, some of you are sitting here thinking "Really Adele, really?" But no everyone, hear me out. When you are in the midst of a tandem screaming session and neither baby wants to be calmed, or your toddler is freaking out and the baby needs to be nursed and you can't fix both... It seems like you are all alone. It feels like no one understands how tired and frustrated and inadequate you feel.
Cry out to him for wisdom, for strength, for patience, and he'll give it! Take your heart ache before your heavenly Father and he promises that he will meet your needs. Trying to get through this challenging time without the Lord is a bad idea. This is not the time to pull away from God, but rather a time to draw every nearer to him.
This is only for a season.
Your baby won't always be up all night screaming, and colic eventually goes away. That toddler will develop some manners and will learn obedience if you use some persistence and care. One day that baby will rock himself to sleep and you will sleep through the night again.
This will not last forever. Everything will adjust itself out eventually, you just gotta wait it out. That blissful six months stage is coming!
You are the best possible thing for your children right now.
It's so tempting when you're overwhelmed to think "I bet (insert other mothers name), would be better for my kids." Or it's tempting to have thoughts of running away or giving up.
Oh Mama... you are the very best thing for your child right now. No one knows them like you, probably not even your husband knows them like you. Yes, it seems like you are the last person they need. It seems like you're never going to get this right, but think of it this way.
These babies are taking the time to voice that something is wrong. Because they trust you to be able to fix it.
They know that when you are near, the bad things go away. Maybe they just need a cry, and know that in the safety of your arms... they can vulnerable. This is especially true of older babies.
Don't let doubt take away the knowledge that your children where given to you by God for a purpose. Not to anyone else, you. God thought you were the best thing they needed, and don't you forget it.
Give yourself a break.
I bet you are your hardest critic.
Sorry to break it to you darlin'... but you're human. Trying to meet the needs perfectly of yet another human. Neither of you is perfect, and one of you has limited to no verbal communication skills. Of course you're occasionally going to have problems!
You don't have to be the perfect mom. Nope, nope you don't. In fact, you can't be.
Sometimes the baby will cry, and it's ok to just let them... cry. And sometimes the toddler will be freaking out for no reason you can find again, and it's ok to bribe them with a cookie and hope that that solves whatever problem they're having.
Sometimes being a good mom is saying "I don't know what to do anymore, so I'm going to walk away before I do something I regret."
Sometimes being a good mom is giving yourself a break and saying "I'm human too, and I'm not gonna be able to do this perfectly, but I can do my best and God will take care of the rest."
Most of all.. You are a great mom. Don't let anyone, including yourself, say otherwise.